Firstly, I’ll echo Amber: you matter, and you have a right to live, no matter what.
To answer the question: No, suicide is not rational in the slightest. You have many decades of life left. If, during that time, you convert just one single person to veganism, anywhere in the world, you will have cancelled out all of the meat you were forced to eat. If you want to go further, you can exert political pressure, donate money, work on meat replacement tech, etc, which all work on mass scale.
Or consider it this way: If every animal rights advocate committed suicide, do you think that animals would be better off long-term? Of course not! It would probably make things way worse, with nobody to push back on a culture of animal exploitation.
Firstly, I’ll echo Amber: you matter, and you have a right to live, no matter what.
To answer the question: No, suicide is not rational in the slightest. You have many decades of life left. If, during that time, you convert just one single person to veganism, anywhere in the world, you will have cancelled out all of the meat you were forced to eat. If you want to go further, you can exert political pressure, donate money, work on meat replacement tech, etc, which all work on mass scale.
Or consider it this way: If every animal rights advocate committed suicide, do you think that animals would be better off long-term? Of course not! It would probably make things way worse, with nobody to push back on a culture of animal exploitation.