First of all, I don’t think suicide would be morally required even if you did cause lots of harm to animals. I think we have a right to live.
Second, I don’t think suicide is the best way for you to help animals. I’m not sure of your exact situation, but as you get older you’re likely to get more independence from your parents and community, and at that point you can stop eating animals products. At that point you’ll also have the whole of your life and career ahead of you. If you dedicate your career to animal welfare, that will easily outweigh the suffering caused by you not being vegan for a few years in your teens. I don’t think you should beat yourself up about not being vegan because you’re forced by family and societal pressure.
You say you’re not sure how you can help animals with your career, but I think STEM majors can do a lot to help animals! You could become a welfare biologist for example, helping study the experiences and welfare of animals so that we have a better idea of how to prevent suffering. Or you could work on developing vegan meat alternatives or cultured meat, eventually making it cheaper and easier for more people to become vegan.
You can also donate money: because animal welfare improvements in agriculture affect a large number of animals, my understanding is that even with quite a small donation you can prevent a lot of suffering. So you don’t have to make a large income to make a difference here.
I hope this is helpful and your difficult situation improves soon!
First of all, I don’t think suicide would be morally required even if you did cause lots of harm to animals. I think we have a right to live.
Second, I don’t think suicide is the best way for you to help animals. I’m not sure of your exact situation, but as you get older you’re likely to get more independence from your parents and community, and at that point you can stop eating animals products. At that point you’ll also have the whole of your life and career ahead of you. If you dedicate your career to animal welfare, that will easily outweigh the suffering caused by you not being vegan for a few years in your teens. I don’t think you should beat yourself up about not being vegan because you’re forced by family and societal pressure.
You say you’re not sure how you can help animals with your career, but I think STEM majors can do a lot to help animals! You could become a welfare biologist for example, helping study the experiences and welfare of animals so that we have a better idea of how to prevent suffering. Or you could work on developing vegan meat alternatives or cultured meat, eventually making it cheaper and easier for more people to become vegan.
You can also donate money: because animal welfare improvements in agriculture affect a large number of animals, my understanding is that even with quite a small donation you can prevent a lot of suffering. So you don’t have to make a large income to make a difference here.
I hope this is helpful and your difficult situation improves soon!