You’re not alone in finding these topics mind-boggling and distressing!
If you’d like to talk to people and there’s not an EA group near you, you could join the EA Anywhere group: https://​​eahub.org/​​group/​​effective-altruism-anywhere-2/​​
There’s also the EA Peer Support group: https://​​www.facebook.com/​​groups/​​ea.peer.support
You’re not alone in finding these topics mind-boggling and distressing!
If you’d like to talk to people and there’s not an EA group near you, you could join the EA Anywhere group: https://​​eahub.org/​​group/​​effective-altruism-anywhere-2/​​
There’s also the EA Peer Support group: https://​​www.facebook.com/​​groups/​​ea.peer.support