Thanks for sharing this! I felt like I related to it at a lot. Instead of thinking that I’m fooling people I often just distrust the positive feedback I get and only trust feedback that is negative. If I get positive feedback from others I almost always disregard it and chalk it up to people being nice, sarcastic or too afraid to express their true opinions to a person of color. From my perspective anything I’m able to do anyone can do if they really want to and I’m not exceptional at all.
On a meta level I filled out the imposter syndrome questionnaire and felt like an imposter when I got a really high score! Though maybe this is not imposter syndrome and it’s just some other form of self-doubt. I even experience imposter syndrome writing this comment, like “That was a great post, what worthwhile thing can I even say about it and why would anyone care.” Jeez I need to work on it.
Thanks for sharing this! I felt like I related to it at a lot. Instead of thinking that I’m fooling people I often just distrust the positive feedback I get and only trust feedback that is negative. If I get positive feedback from others I almost always disregard it and chalk it up to people being nice, sarcastic or too afraid to express their true opinions to a person of color. From my perspective anything I’m able to do anyone can do if they really want to and I’m not exceptional at all.
On a meta level I filled out the imposter syndrome questionnaire and felt like an imposter when I got a really high score! Though maybe this is not imposter syndrome and it’s just some other form of self-doubt. I even experience imposter syndrome writing this comment, like “That was a great post, what worthwhile thing can I even say about it and why would anyone care.” Jeez I need to work on it.