[Question] What I ‘Should’ Do vs What Keeps Me Up at Night

Hello,

I work in nature conservation. I enjoy the job well enough as I like being outside and using my body, and rationally I know that what I am doing is good for the world. However, nothing occupies my mind and heart more than big data’s threat on privacy, the seemingly unmitigated effect that certain technologies are having on children’s mental health and development, and surveillance capitalism’s exploitation of autonomy and dignity.

The impulse to do something about the latter (admittedly a broad spectrum) keeps me up at night, even though I know that I am spending my days doing something that is good for the world, and potentially more effective than a role I could re-train for in some kind of tech policy job. Like I said, I enjoy my current job, and I do find it fulfilling (at least rationally so), but, strangely, combatting the climate crisis does not light a fire in me the way combating technological disruption does.

So my question is, have any of you grappled with this dilemma before? And if so what conclusions did you come to? Is re-training to a role more suited to my moral temperament worthwhile, or altruistically ineffective? I feel as though instinct and moral anxiety have a place at the table when it comes to decision making, but I am also cautious of being irrational. Any thoughts and advice would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you for reading.

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