I love this piece.
my own thoughts:
The mind does attempt to lift the ‘weight of the world’ or the collective of pain and suffering. Though every attempt cannot be accommodated due to a physical capacity or storage limitation. To accommodate will also mean to paralyse, to withdraw, to disfunction or to cease exist, as the pain is tranferable and yet too much, to bear it can really destroy one’s mind. Some stop the attempt to accommodate the pain at an early stage, from the outside it will look like not caring, some will stop it where they can still bear it and function guided by it, end up perhaps here, trying to do something or anything, or the best thing, and some will not be able to stop it, which will leave them be a carcass of a body accommodating a large sum of pain, completely unable to perform, function, and live.
Consiously or unconsiouly we do decide our capacity for pain.
Feel free to reach out. If there is anything I can do to help. If you are one of the people experiencing the latter do know you are not alone.
Unable to make a choice.
I suppose one way to approach this is to do the math and save the most lives, but I don’t do well with mathematics, so this is not an option for me.
Therefore, another approach would be to carry out additional research based on the following thoughts:
If saving a life means keeping someone alive, then perhaps the question I should try to answer is: How long will they be kept alive with the suggested solution? I mean, if someone survives disease A today and dies from disease B tomorrow, then all I did was give them one extra day. Then again, should this matter? Is it more important to help, let’s say 10 people gain one extra day of life than 1 person gain 10 more days of life? I apologize for my phrasing. I know it sounds awful.
To figure all these things out, I will have to conduct my own research to gather additional information about the people who receive these support solutions, what else threatens their lives, and many other factors. Of course, this will require a great deal of time, and then again I will have to consider whether all that time spent on research could cost those people by preventing me from earning the amount of money that would actually help any. In the end, I will choose randomly, hoping that I made the right choice.