I’m a student from Canada. I’m also unsure what to do with my life in the long run. And I also struggle to commit to jobs I’m not excited about / don’t have formal work experience.
But I’m just entering my first year of university next year + I haven’t faced nearly as many challenges as you have growing up. So these are just some reflections on simple actionables that have worked for me. But feel free to let me know if they don’t work for you
I won’t let myself make important decisions while depressed. Over the pandemic, I’ve had depressive phases more. A few months ago, it was really challenging. I’d suddenly lose motivation towards whatever goals I was pursuing during those phases. But, I realised how SO many thoughts (positive and negative) just came and go—it was so volatile! It was kind of like I was riding a train and looking out a window to see different things passing by. So I visualise that train window and lots of thoughts passing by to remind myself: “This too shall pass.” It makes me less likely to deviate from long-term plans and make rash decisions while I’m depressed/anxious/in any extreme mood.
I don’t like rigid, long-term plans or rigid commitments in general. For example, I don’t enjoy having rigid periods or time blocks where I have to focus on studying for one course, then move on at a specified time. (It seems like you mentioned that too, when you said you like focusing on one thing for some longer time.) That’s why I like checklists. Checklists were the first tool that kind of let me focus on the simple, everyday tasks that were kind of mundane but I just NEEDED to get done. And they were the start of a lot more organisation in my life as I added other ‘systems’ to organise myself. Would it help you to try a checklist at THE simplest level ?Ie. just write down ONE task you have to accomplish in a day and try to get it done by the end of the day. IF that works for you, maybe you can try two tasks a week later? And maybe three tasks a few weeks later? And so on. Maybe that might help power through boring schoolwork?
I say the above because it seems like you’re exploring different career paths and aren’t decided on one yet. And as you said, a university degree would be useful in giving you optionality - to try out and explore more paths than you could without a university degree. Those are just my thoughts on why it might make sense to stick to university (especially since you’re already a little ways through). Does spending another year at university seem like a long time to you? I felt that way when thinking about taking a gap year—that I would spend an ENTIRE year doing who knows what??? But I guess I realised that one year is not a long time in a 80 year life. That personally helped me make that decision to do something I wasn’t ready to at first.
I find learning for myself fun and learning for others boring. Even while learning the exact same thing! For example, I was reviewing some physics in my textbook over the summer. I could skip over all the boring parts with as little effort as possible and then dive deeper into parts I found interesting. I like to think of it as making studying a game for myself. If I hit this milestone, I get rewardX. Ex: If I finish this problem set, I get to watch a TED talk about climate change just because I find that interesting! I also enjoy people over textbooks, so I go out of my way to have conversations with teachers whenever possible. Even during the virtual pandemic, for example, a good way to get started would be to ask at least 1 question / class. It doesn’t even have to be about the courses! I started a chemistry class by asking my teacher: “How do we learn to accept the things we don’t want to accept?” once and he started talking about how he wanted to be a soccer player growing up :D
I’ve also been looking for a BIG change recently :/ Just felt like the pandemic lockdowns in Canada were the same forever. One thing that’s helped me is making more time for things I enjoy. Not only does this help with mental health, but it also makes me more skilled! Maybe that’s uniquely my situation, though, because I really enjoy just RANDOMLY learning stuff. Ex: reading a book on negotiation, reading an article about psychological biases, whatever. Those small things help me better prepare for the big change and be more satisfied while I work towards that big change. In terms of the BIG change, I haven’t yet had luck. I’ve been trying to get a job so I can experience something new. But I’ll keep at it and hope the big change happens one day. I hope you also have that experience of looking back one day and seeing that you’ve found the big change you’re looking for!
Let me know if there are any other ways I can help you :-) Feel free to DM me!
Thank you for the response. I’ve given checklists a try in the past and found them useful then; my problem has been that I don’t remember/think to draw up new ones. The obvious solution to that is obvious, so I set a repeating alarm on my phone to remind me. Whenever it goes off I’ll draw up a to-do list for the day, even a short one.
If I hadn’t had to explain why it was to-do lists hadn’t worked for me in the past, I wouldn’t have thought of the obvious solution (though, time will tell how well it works—I only just now set the alarm), so many thanks for replying to me and writing up such a long and thoughtful list of things which worked for you.
What if you made a daily checklist? :-) I like to make a checklist when I wake up every day. After a week or two, it just becomes habit! And an alarm would fit into that perfectly :D
Hi @LumpyProletariat :-)
I’m a student from Canada. I’m also unsure what to do with my life in the long run. And I also struggle to commit to jobs I’m not excited about / don’t have formal work experience.
But I’m just entering my first year of university next year + I haven’t faced nearly as many challenges as you have growing up. So these are just some reflections on simple actionables that have worked for me. But feel free to let me know if they don’t work for you
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I won’t let myself make important decisions while depressed. Over the pandemic, I’ve had depressive phases more. A few months ago, it was really challenging. I’d suddenly lose motivation towards whatever goals I was pursuing during those phases. But, I realised how SO many thoughts (positive and negative) just came and go—it was so volatile! It was kind of like I was riding a train and looking out a window to see different things passing by. So I visualise that train window and lots of thoughts passing by to remind myself: “This too shall pass.” It makes me less likely to deviate from long-term plans and make rash decisions while I’m depressed/anxious/in any extreme mood.
I don’t like rigid, long-term plans or rigid commitments in general. For example, I don’t enjoy having rigid periods or time blocks where I have to focus on studying for one course, then move on at a specified time. (It seems like you mentioned that too, when you said you like focusing on one thing for some longer time.) That’s why I like checklists. Checklists were the first tool that kind of let me focus on the simple, everyday tasks that were kind of mundane but I just NEEDED to get done. And they were the start of a lot more organisation in my life as I added other ‘systems’ to organise myself. Would it help you to try a checklist at THE simplest level ?Ie. just write down ONE task you have to accomplish in a day and try to get it done by the end of the day. IF that works for you, maybe you can try two tasks a week later? And maybe three tasks a few weeks later? And so on. Maybe that might help power through boring schoolwork?
I say the above because it seems like you’re exploring different career paths and aren’t decided on one yet. And as you said, a university degree would be useful in giving you optionality - to try out and explore more paths than you could without a university degree. Those are just my thoughts on why it might make sense to stick to university (especially since you’re already a little ways through). Does spending another year at university seem like a long time to you? I felt that way when thinking about taking a gap year—that I would spend an ENTIRE year doing who knows what??? But I guess I realised that one year is not a long time in a 80 year life. That personally helped me make that decision to do something I wasn’t ready to at first.
I find learning for myself fun and learning for others boring. Even while learning the exact same thing! For example, I was reviewing some physics in my textbook over the summer. I could skip over all the boring parts with as little effort as possible and then dive deeper into parts I found interesting. I like to think of it as making studying a game for myself. If I hit this milestone, I get reward X. Ex: If I finish this problem set, I get to watch a TED talk about climate change just because I find that interesting! I also enjoy people over textbooks, so I go out of my way to have conversations with teachers whenever possible. Even during the virtual pandemic, for example, a good way to get started would be to ask at least 1 question / class. It doesn’t even have to be about the courses! I started a chemistry class by asking my teacher: “How do we learn to accept the things we don’t want to accept?” once and he started talking about how he wanted to be a soccer player growing up :D
I’ve also been looking for a BIG change recently :/ Just felt like the pandemic lockdowns in Canada were the same forever. One thing that’s helped me is making more time for things I enjoy. Not only does this help with mental health, but it also makes me more skilled! Maybe that’s uniquely my situation, though, because I really enjoy just RANDOMLY learning stuff. Ex: reading a book on negotiation, reading an article about psychological biases, whatever. Those small things help me better prepare for the big change and be more satisfied while I work towards that big change. In terms of the BIG change, I haven’t yet had luck. I’ve been trying to get a job so I can experience something new. But I’ll keep at it and hope the big change happens one day. I hope you also have that experience of looking back one day and seeing that you’ve found the big change you’re looking for!
Let me know if there are any other ways I can help you :-) Feel free to DM me!
Thank you for the response. I’ve given checklists a try in the past and found them useful then; my problem has been that I don’t remember/think to draw up new ones. The obvious solution to that is obvious, so I set a repeating alarm on my phone to remind me. Whenever it goes off I’ll draw up a to-do list for the day, even a short one.
If I hadn’t had to explain why it was to-do lists hadn’t worked for me in the past, I wouldn’t have thought of the obvious solution (though, time will tell how well it works—I only just now set the alarm), so many thanks for replying to me and writing up such a long and thoughtful list of things which worked for you.
What if you made a daily checklist? :-) I like to make a checklist when I wake up every day. After a week or two, it just becomes habit! And an alarm would fit into that perfectly :D