I was using very casual language here, and there might be a better word than “irrational”.
The complex concept I was casually representing: “It seems good to be someone who feels more satisfaction when they do more good for more people. This isn’t how my own feelings of satisfaction work, which makes me less motivated to do more good for more people than I wish I were.”
“Irrational” refers to the desire to feel a different way than I actually feel, with a hint of “this is especially awkward because I’ve had plenty of time to reflect on these feelings and try to change them”. Maybe “unreasonable” is a better word, or even “imperfect”.
I was using very casual language here, and there might be a better word than “irrational”.
The complex concept I was casually representing: “It seems good to be someone who feels more satisfaction when they do more good for more people. This isn’t how my own feelings of satisfaction work, which makes me less motivated to do more good for more people than I wish I were.”
“Irrational” refers to the desire to feel a different way than I actually feel, with a hint of “this is especially awkward because I’ve had plenty of time to reflect on these feelings and try to change them”. Maybe “unreasonable” is a better word, or even “imperfect”.