Deleting this because on re-reading I think I’m just repeating myself, but in a more annoyed way. Thanks for checking with other people, I’ll leave it at that.
Thank you. I’m grateful you checked with other people. Yes, I do think there is some history rewriting and mythologising going on here compared to my own memory of how things were, and this bothers me because I think the truth does matter.
There is a very real sense in which Nick had a pretty sweet setup at Oxford, in terms of having the power and influence to do an unusual thing. And there were a bunch of people around him working insanely hard to help make that happen. I also do think there is a degree to which, yes, Nick blew it. I don’t really want to dwell on this because it feels a bit like bad-mouthing FHI at its funeral. And it’s not the whole story. But it is a source of some frustration to me, because I did not have that position of power and influence in trying to do somewhat similar things, and have spent years banging my head against various walls, and I would have liked to see the FHI story go well. That is not to say i would have made all the right decisions had I had that power and influence (I’m sure I would not), or that I did make all the right decisions in the situations I was in. But I still think I am within my rights to have a view as someone who was actually there for 4 years doing the thing.
As well as all the good stuff, Nick was unusually pedantic and stubborn about a huge range of things, many of them (to my lights) relatively unimportant, from expensive cups to fonts to refusing to follow processes that would not realistically have impeded FHI’s intellectual activities to follow. And so many things would get framed as a battle to be won against the Faculty/University, where a bit of cooperation would have gone a long way. Play stupid games, win stupid prizes. It sucked up huge amounts of FHI time, huge amounts of Faculty time, and huge amounts of social capital, which made it harder to stand ground/get cooperation on the stuff that mattered. And it compounded over time. You don’t trust me, but do some digging and I think you’ll find it. There were two sides to this thing.
All of this I am saying based on a lot of context and experience at FHI. Rather than question or challenge me on my original point, your immediate reaction was two multi-paragraph posts seemingly aimed at publicly discrediting me in every way—repeatedly saying that you don’t consider me trustworthy; that my career’s work has been bad for the world and therefore my takes shouldn’t be listened to; that I am some sort of malign intellectual influence who is somehow responsible for intellectual attacks on other people*. To me this doesn’t look like truth-seeking behaviour. It looks more like an effort to discredit a person who challenged the favoured narrative.
Even after being told by someone who actually was at FHI that I was a big part of making it work, your response seems to imply that if you did some digging into my time at FHI, you would find that actually my influence turned out to be negative and harmful. Well do that digging, see if that’s what you find. I worked damn hard there, took personal risks, and did good work. You want to claim that’s false, you can show some evidence.
*And no, I don’t think these things are equivalently harsh. I criticised Nick for bureaucratic mistakes. Nobody respects Nick primarily for his administrative/bureaucratic relationship skills. They respect him for other things, which I have praised on other occasions. Your personal go at me targeted pretty much every aspect of why people might respect me or consider me worth listening to. That is fundamentally different.
Yudkowsky’s comments at his sister’s wedding seems surprisingly relevant here:
David Bashevkin:
And I would not think it was not think that Eliezer Yudkowsky would be the best sheva brachos speaker, but it was the most lovely thing that he said. What did Eliezer Yudkowsky say at your sheva brachos?
Channah Cohen:
Yeah, it’s a great story because it was mind-blowingly surprising at the time. And it is, I think the only thing that anyone said at a sheva brachos that I actually remember, he got up at the first sheva brachos and he said, when you die after 120 years, you’re going to go up to shamayim [this means heaven] and Hakadosh Baruch Hu [this means God]. And again, he used these phrases—
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Channah Cohen:
Yeah. Hakadosh Baruch Hu will stand the man and the woman in front of him and he will go through a whole list of all the arguments you ever had together, and he will tell you who was actually right in each one of those arguments. And at the end he’ll take a tally, and whoever was right more often wins the marriage. And then everyone kind of chuckled and Ellie said, “And if you don’t believe that, then don’t act like it’s true.”
David Bashevkin:
What a profound… If you don’t believe that, then don’t act like it’s true. Don’t spend your entire marriage and relationship hoping that you’re going to win the test to win the marriage.
Deleting this because on re-reading I think I’m just repeating myself, but in a more annoyed way. Thanks for checking with other people, I’ll leave it at that.
Thank you. I’m grateful you checked with other people. Yes, I do think there is some history rewriting and mythologising going on here compared to my own memory of how things were, and this bothers me because I think the truth does matter.There is a very real sense in which Nick had a pretty sweet setup at Oxford, in terms of having the power and influence to do an unusual thing. And there were a bunch of people around him working insanely hard to help make that happen. I also do think there is a degree to which, yes, Nick blew it. I don’t really want to dwell on this because it feels a bit like bad-mouthing FHI at its funeral. And it’s not the whole story. But it is a source of some frustration to me, because I did not have that position of power and influence in trying to do somewhat similar things, and have spent years banging my head against various walls, and I would have liked to see the FHI story go well. That is not to say i would have made all the right decisions had I had that power and influence (I’m sure I would not), or that I did make all the right decisions in the situations I was in. But I still think I am within my rights to have a view as someone who was actually there for 4 years doing the thing.As well as all the good stuff, Nick was unusually pedantic and stubborn about a huge range of things, many of them (to my lights) relatively unimportant, from expensive cups to fonts to refusing to follow processes that would not realistically have impeded FHI’s intellectual activities to follow. And so many things would get framed as a battle to be won against the Faculty/University, where a bit of cooperation would have gone a long way. Play stupid games, win stupid prizes. It sucked up huge amounts of FHI time, huge amounts of Faculty time, and huge amounts of social capital, which made it harder to stand ground/get cooperation on the stuff that mattered. And it compounded over time. You don’t trust me, but do some digging and I think you’ll find it. There were two sides to this thing.All of this I am saying based on a lot of context and experience at FHI. Rather than question or challenge me on my original point, your immediate reaction was two multi-paragraph posts seemingly aimed at publicly discrediting me in every way—repeatedly saying that you don’t consider me trustworthy; that my career’s work has been bad for the world and therefore my takes shouldn’t be listened to; that I am some sort of malign intellectual influence who is somehow responsible for intellectual attacks on other people*. To me this doesn’t look like truth-seeking behaviour. It looks more like an effort to discredit a person who challenged the favoured narrative.Evenafterbeing told by someone who actually was at FHI that I was a big part of making it work, your response seems to imply that if you did some digging into my time at FHI, you would find that actually my influence turned out to be negative and harmful. Well do that digging, see if that’s what you find. I worked damn hard there, took personal risks, and did good work. You want to claim that’s false, you can show some evidence.*And no, I don’t think these things are equivalently harsh. I criticised Nick for bureaucratic mistakes. Nobody respects Nick primarily for his administrative/bureaucratic relationship skills. They respect him for other things, which I have praised on other occasions. Your personal go at me targeted pretty much every aspect of why people might respect me or consider me worth listening to. That is fundamentally different.Yudkowsky’s comments at his sister’s wedding seems surprisingly relevant here: