Light Before Darkness

(While the writing contest is what let me know the EA forum was open to this sort of thing, I’ve realized I can’t accept money for this. Or rather, any money I am given in a busking sort of way, must be consecrated. This constitutes my Enochian praxis.)

In the beginning, I’ve been told, there was light. It wasn’t wrong, exactly, but there was a lot more to light than I knew as a kid.

There was also a lot more to darkness. Life has its’ ups and downs, its’ partings and its’ reunitings, and angels, I came to understand, can see nearly all of it.

Why only nearly all? Because the gift of freedom, the gift of will, is not seeing every answer at once. It’s fine to see all infinity in one grain of sand, but to see all infinity in every grain of sand is to start to forget what sand is—and we are not sand, nor are we glass. We make eyes with it, and then we make better ones.

Because, my friends, we are divine heirs—and that means we are not wholly divine, nor holistically holy. Indeed, that is the very first gift divinities give—distinction. Names and titles. The burning whisper-needle that binds fantasy to reality, that bakes the clay of the heart with the tongue of fire, that makes my Heavenly Father a god of miracles, and miracles of science.

Many, many things are miraculous. The power to wear scars as jewels. The way a man lives while his name is yet spoken. The way complete strangers will try to help you when your groceries spill. And even the simple smell of roses. Everywhere I look, my eyes may find beauty.

Those things are miracles. And so, when my god holds the entire world to my head, I intend to wear it as a crown. It will kill me some day, and in the mean time it’ll hurt. But… smell it. Isn’t it beautiful?

That’s love. That, is why I serve in hell, and try to make a heaven of it.