How long ago did you attend your CFAR workshop? My sense is that the content CFAR teaches and who the teachers are have changed a lot over the years. Maybe they’ve gotten better (or worse?) about teaching the “true form.”
(Or maybe you were saying you also didn’t get the “true form” even in the more recent AIRCS workshops?)
″...but do not think that they are smart or committed enough to be engaging at your level?” was intended to be from a generic insecure (or realistic) EA’s perspective, not yours. Sorry for my confusing phrasing.