I usually ask for feedback, and often it’s something like “Idk, the vibe seemed off somehow. I can’t really explain it.” Do you know what that could be?
This sounds like someone who doesn’t want to actually give you feedback, my guess is they’re scared of insulting you, or being liable to something legal, or something like that.
My focus wouldn’t be on trying to interpret the literal words (like “what vibe”) but rather making them comfortable to give you actual real feedback. This is a skill in itself which you can practice. Here’s a draft to maybe start from: “Hey, I think I have some kind of blind spot in interviews where I’m doing something wrong, but I don’t know what it is and a friend told me I probably won’t notice it myself and I better get feedback from someone else. Any chance you’d tell me more about what didn’t work for you? I promise not to be insulted or complain for not passing or anything like that”
2.
But in non-EA jobs I’m also afraid that I might not live up to some expectations in the first several weeks when I’m still new to everything.
This is super common. Like, I’m not making this up, I had dozens of conversations and this is a common thing to worry about, and it’s probably true to many other people interviewing to the same position.
My own approach to this is to tell the interviewer what I’m worried about, and also the reasons that I might not be a good match for whatever this is. For example, “I never worked with some-tech-you-use”. If after hearing my worries they still want to hire me, that’s great, and I don’t need to pretend to know anything. I also think this somewhat filters for hiring managers that appreciate transparency (and not pretending everything is perfect), which is pretty important to me personally.
(also, reasonable managers understand you will need onboarding time, and if they don’t understand that—then I prefer they don’t hire me)
This all totally might be a Yonatan-thing, idk.
4.
You mean as positive reinforcement?
Yeah
I could meet with a friend or go climbing. :-3
I think (?) I’d aim for something short that I could do right-after, so my brain will understand this is a positive reinforcement and not just an unrelated fun evening? This is just my own intuition. I guess it would work if I’d meet a friend and they’d keep saying “good job for interviewing! now let’s get you chocolate!” or whatever :)
I don’t really know, I recommend you trust your own introspection, I might be unusual here
5.
Maybe I should practice minimally next time to avoid that.
Eh, you might have (right now) downsides to applying and not having it work well. The downsides might be subjective or “technically wrong” but if you’re averse to applying with minimal practice, I would acknowledge that feeling and try to address it (or if you can’t—I’m not personally pushing you to apply to Google unprepared, if it seems scary or so).
Examples of things that might worry you:
a. “will google never invite you to interview again if you fail” --> You can check Google’s policy. I think they have a 6-12 months cooldown for people who didn’t pass, but you can apply again. Is this time too long? Maybe you don’t care at all? I don’t know, depends on your circumstances
b. maybe you’re not interviewing to dozens of places and so it (maybe correctly) feels like Google is your only chance? ( --> I’d recommend interviewing to dozens of places, to be clear :P )
I think a useful answer here would mainly involve listening to you which I can’t really do over text. If you want to brainstorm out loud here, I can try to contribute “textbook solutions” if I have them. Or you could do introspection with a friend, or we could talk, or none of the above! just trying to share how I’d approach this
This sounds like someone who doesn’t want to actually give you feedback, my guess is they’re scared of insulting you, or being liable to something legal, or something like that.
Oh, interesting… I’m autistic and I’ve heard that autistic people give off subtly weird “uncanny valley”–type vibes even if they mask well. So I mostly just assume it’s that. Close friends of mine who surely felt perfectly free to tell me anything were also at a loss to describe it. They said the vibes were less when I made a ponytail rather than had open hair, but they couldn’t describe it. (Once I transition more, I hope people will just attribute the vibes to my probably-unfortunately-slightly-imperfect femininity and not worry about it. ^.^ I just need to plant enough weirdness lightning rods. xD)
But he was US-based at the time, and I’ve heard employers in the US are much more careful with giving feedback than around here, so maybe it was just guardedness in that case.
I like your template! I remember another series of interviews where I easily figured out what the problems were (unless they were pretenses). I think I’m quite attuned (by dint of social anxiety) to subtle indications of disappointment and such. When I first mentioned earning to give in an interview, I noticed a certain hesitancy and found out that it’s because the person was looking for someone who has an intrinsic motivation for building hardware for supply chain optimization rather than someone who does it for the money. But in other cases I’m clueless, so the template can come into action!
My own approach to this is to tell the interviewer what I’m worried about, and also the reasons that I might not be a good match for whatever this is. For example, “I never worked with some-tech-you-use”. If after hearing my worries they still want to hire me, that’s great, and I don’t need to pretend to know anything. I also think this somewhat filters for hiring managers that appreciate transparency (and not pretending everything is perfect), which is pretty important to me personally.
Oh yes, I love this! I think I’ve done this in virtually every interview simply because I actually didn’t know something. One interviewer even asked me whether I know the so-and-so design pattern. I asked what that is, and then concluded that I had never heard of it. Good call too, because that thing turned out to be ungoogleable. Idk whether he made it up or whether it was an invention of his CS professor, but being transparent about such things has served me well. :-D
Examples of things that might worry you:
I think for me it’s mostly about what the other people in the room will think about me, not about consequences for me. I’m also afraid of playing games with friends or strangers for the same reason even though my blunders in such games wouldn’t realistically have any consequences for me. :-/
My training with actual interviews will have to wait though because I found a great ETG-oriented EA-run company that is basically my best-case employer. :-D My personal growth will have to continue not down the path of becoming braver but down the path of understanding gas optimization in Uniswap v3. ^.^
Thank you so much for all your ideas! (How is your work going? :-D)
1.a and b.
This sounds like someone who doesn’t want to actually give you feedback, my guess is they’re scared of insulting you, or being liable to something legal, or something like that.
My focus wouldn’t be on trying to interpret the literal words (like “what vibe”) but rather making them comfortable to give you actual real feedback. This is a skill in itself which you can practice. Here’s a draft to maybe start from: “Hey, I think I have some kind of blind spot in interviews where I’m doing something wrong, but I don’t know what it is and a friend told me I probably won’t notice it myself and I better get feedback from someone else. Any chance you’d tell me more about what didn’t work for you? I promise not to be insulted or complain for not passing or anything like that”
2.
This is super common. Like, I’m not making this up, I had dozens of conversations and this is a common thing to worry about, and it’s probably true to many other people interviewing to the same position.
My own approach to this is to tell the interviewer what I’m worried about, and also the reasons that I might not be a good match for whatever this is. For example, “I never worked with some-tech-you-use”. If after hearing my worries they still want to hire me, that’s great, and I don’t need to pretend to know anything. I also think this somewhat filters for hiring managers that appreciate transparency (and not pretending everything is perfect), which is pretty important to me personally.
(also, reasonable managers understand you will need onboarding time, and if they don’t understand that—then I prefer they don’t hire me)
This all totally might be a Yonatan-thing, idk.
4.
Yeah
I think (?) I’d aim for something short that I could do right-after, so my brain will understand this is a positive reinforcement and not just an unrelated fun evening? This is just my own intuition. I guess it would work if I’d meet a friend and they’d keep saying “good job for interviewing! now let’s get you chocolate!” or whatever :)
I don’t really know, I recommend you trust your own introspection, I might be unusual here
5.
Eh, you might have (right now) downsides to applying and not having it work well. The downsides might be subjective or “technically wrong” but if you’re averse to applying with minimal practice, I would acknowledge that feeling and try to address it (or if you can’t—I’m not personally pushing you to apply to Google unprepared, if it seems scary or so).
Examples of things that might worry you:
a. “will google never invite you to interview again if you fail” --> You can check Google’s policy. I think they have a 6-12 months cooldown for people who didn’t pass, but you can apply again. Is this time too long? Maybe you don’t care at all? I don’t know, depends on your circumstances
b. maybe you’re not interviewing to dozens of places and so it (maybe correctly) feels like Google is your only chance? ( --> I’d recommend interviewing to dozens of places, to be clear :P )
I think a useful answer here would mainly involve listening to you which I can’t really do over text. If you want to brainstorm out loud here, I can try to contribute “textbook solutions” if I have them. Or you could do introspection with a friend, or we could talk, or none of the above! just trying to share how I’d approach this
:)
Oh, interesting… I’m autistic and I’ve heard that autistic people give off subtly weird “uncanny valley”–type vibes even if they mask well. So I mostly just assume it’s that. Close friends of mine who surely felt perfectly free to tell me anything were also at a loss to describe it. They said the vibes were less when I made a ponytail rather than had open hair, but they couldn’t describe it. (Once I transition more, I hope people will just attribute the vibes to my probably-unfortunately-slightly-imperfect femininity and not worry about it. ^.^ I just need to plant enough weirdness lightning rods. xD)
But he was US-based at the time, and I’ve heard employers in the US are much more careful with giving feedback than around here, so maybe it was just guardedness in that case.
I like your template! I remember another series of interviews where I easily figured out what the problems were (unless they were pretenses). I think I’m quite attuned (by dint of social anxiety) to subtle indications of disappointment and such. When I first mentioned earning to give in an interview, I noticed a certain hesitancy and found out that it’s because the person was looking for someone who has an intrinsic motivation for building hardware for supply chain optimization rather than someone who does it for the money. But in other cases I’m clueless, so the template can come into action!
Oh yes, I love this! I think I’ve done this in virtually every interview simply because I actually didn’t know something. One interviewer even asked me whether I know the so-and-so design pattern. I asked what that is, and then concluded that I had never heard of it. Good call too, because that thing turned out to be ungoogleable. Idk whether he made it up or whether it was an invention of his CS professor, but being transparent about such things has served me well. :-D
I think for me it’s mostly about what the other people in the room will think about me, not about consequences for me. I’m also afraid of playing games with friends or strangers for the same reason even though my blunders in such games wouldn’t realistically have any consequences for me. :-/
My training with actual interviews will have to wait though because I found a great ETG-oriented EA-run company that is basically my best-case employer. :-D My personal growth will have to continue not down the path of becoming braver but down the path of understanding gas optimization in Uniswap v3. ^.^
Thank you so much for all your ideas! (How is your work going? :-D)
I find your comments fun and authentic. I like your approach to voicing your concern that you don’t know something and it helps filter good managers.