You probably won’t solve malaria or x-risk, and that’s ok

Cross-posted from my blog.

Contrary to my carefully crafted brand as a weak nerd, I go to a local CrossFit gym a few times a week. Every year, the gym raises funds for a scholarship for teens from lower-income families to attend their summer camp program. I don’t know how many Crossfit-interested low-income teens there are in my small town, but I’ll guess there are perhaps 2 of them who would benefit from the scholarship. After all, CrossFit is pretty niche, and the town is small.

Helping youngsters get swole in the Pacific Northwest is not exactly as cost-effective as preventing malaria in Malawi. But I notice I feel drawn to supporting the scholarship anyway. Every time it pops in my head I think, “My money could fully solve this problem”. The camp only costs a few hundred dollars per kid and if there are just 2 kids who need support, I could give $500 and there would no longer be teenagers in my town who want to go to a CrossFit summer camp but can’t. Thanks to me, the hero, this problem would be entirely solved. 100%.

That is not how most nonprofit work feels to me.

You are only ever making small dents in important problems

I want to work on big problems. Global poverty. Malaria. Everyone not suddenly dying. But if I’m honest, what I really want is to solve those problems. Me, personally, solve them. This is a continued source of frustration and sadness because I absolutely cannot solve those problems.

Consider what else my $500 CrossFit scholarship might do:

  • I want to save lives, and USAID suddenly stops giving $7 billion a year to PEPFAR. So I give $500 to the Rapid Response Fund. My donation solves 0.000001% of the problem and I feel like I have failed.

  • I want to solve climate change, and getting to net zero will require stopping or removing emissions of 1,500 billion tons of carbon dioxide. I give $500 to a policy nonprofit that reduces emissions, in expectation, by 50 tons. My donation solves 0.000000003% of the problem and I feel like I have failed.

  • I want to reduce existential risk, and think there is a 10% chance that AI will kill everyone. I donate $500 to MIRI, which reduces the chances of extinction by 0.01 microdooms[1]. My donation solves 0.000000001% of the problem and I feel like I have failed.

I can’t come close to solving even 1% of these problems on my own. Not even 0.0001%.

The man who failed to fully solve a genocide

Aristides de Sousa Mendes was a Portuguese aristocrat in the early/​mid 20th century who had some interesting postings around the world as a diplomat. He even had the Sultan of Zanzibar as godfather to one of his kids. In 1938 he ended up taking a comfortable position as Consul at the Portuguese consulate in Bordeaux, France. I often find myself thinking about his work and haven’t heard him discussed in EA circles, so here is some of his story.

Photo of Aristides de Sousa Mendes in 1940

On May 10th 1940, Nazi Germany launched its invasion of France, generating mass movement of refugees, especially Jews. Portugal was officially a neutral country and hundreds in Bordeaux flocked to the Portuguese consulate in the hope of getting a visa to escape to safety. Unbeknownst to them, Portugal’s dictator, Salazar, had issued a secret order 7 months earlier forbidding the issuance of visas to most refugees, in particular “stateless persons”, which at the time primarily meant Jews.

de Sousa Mendes complied with the order, telling applicants that no visas would be issued, but he did try applying for visas on behalf of a rabbi and his family. Lisbon rejected them. de Sousa Mendes then spent 3 days locked in his bedroom, apparently torn between his conscience, and his professional and patriotic duty.

After those 3 days he emerged with a new mission— he would issue those visas to the rabbi’s family anyway, and he would issue visas to anyone who asked for them. He quickly got to work. He set up a bureaucratic assembly line, including his own children, to process visas as efficiently as possible, working night and day.

Word eventually reached the government in Lisbon, who ordered him to cease and eventually sent officials to stop him from issuing the visas. In the 7 days before his visa operation was shut down, at least 1,500 visas had been issued, likely thousands more. While travelling back to Lisbon for a disciplinary hearing, de Sousa Mendes managed to pass through the consulate in Bayonne and, hiding the fact that he was under disciplinary action, successfully ordered officials to issue hundreds more refugee visas.

Upon arrival in Lisbon he was dismissed from his post and denied his pension. Although the visas had been issued explicitly against government orders, they were nonetheless honoured, with many recipients using Portugal as a launch pad to move to the USA. The exact number of visas issued by de Sousa Mendes is not clear. Most estimates are in the range of 3,000 to 10,000 visas, with some visas covering more than one person[2]. He died in 1954, impoverished, with his story only gaining recognition decades later. In 1988 the Portuguese parliament officially pardoned him and posthumously promoted him to the rank of ambassador. A public poll in 2007 named him the 3rd greatest Portuguese person in history.

But de Sousa Mendes’ work was tiny against the enormity of the genocide. Even if he issued visas to as many as 10,000 people and all 10,000 would otherwise have been murdered, his contribution was to alleviate just 0.1% of the horror of the Holocaust.

Saving starfish

There is a corny parable I’ve heard a few times in nonprofit circles. A man is walking along a beach after a violent storm. The storm has caused many thousands of starfish to be washed up onto the beach, doomed to dry out in the heat of the sun. He sees a young boy picking up individual starfish and throwing them into the sea. He asks him, “Why are you bothering? You will never be able to save all of the starfish, your efforts don’t matter”. The boy replies, “But it matters to this one”, and throws another starfish into the cool water.

I used to see this parable as an argument for old-school, inefficient nonprofits. The kind that say “What matters is that we are doing something”, rather than taking the time to reflect on whether what they are doing is effective, or the most effective thing they could do with their resources. I’m now less negative. If you are reasonably confident that what you are doing is the most effective thing you can do, then it doesn’t matter if it fully solves any problem. You do it because it matters to the people you are able to help. The boy is right: if it matters to this one, then it matters.

Big problems are actually solved piece by piece

I have recently been thinking about de Sousa Mendes and the starfish boy a lot. Some problems, many problems, are so big that anything I do about them will not bring them any more than a tiny fraction closer to being solved. Sometimes, that feeling can make me want to give up. Or at least, give up on those big problems and find ones I can solve by myself, like the CrossFit scholarship.

But de Sousa Mendes and the starfish boy remind me that large problems are often comprised of many small ones stacked up. They remind me that if my donation can only save the life of one child from malaria, when hundreds of thousands will die this year, the donation still matters because that one child matters. And while my donation to the CrossFit scholarship would fully fix a problem, and my malaria donation only fractionally dents malaria, if the donation saves a life then it has actually “solved” malaria for that child.

Sometimes, we will be a part of a humanity-scale endeavour that really does solve a big problem, like smallpox eradication. Other times, we will play our part in chipping away at a problem that we hope others will eventually solve, like climate change. And at times, we might face a problem like de Sousa Mendes, where we are simply making our tiny dent in a problem that will not be solved, not in time, and where the horrors will still continue. In each case, what matters isn’t whether we solve the big problem. All that can matter that is we do the best we can, and solve the small pieces that we can, because in every small piece of the problem is not a rounding error but a living being, and your work matters– to them.

  1. ^

    I have no idea what a reasonable cost-effectiveness estimate is for an x-risk org butyou get the idea

  2. ^

    The typical estimate you see online is 30,000 visas but that seems to actually refer to all visas issued at the time by Portugal, not just those by de Sousa Mendes